2003 MTV Movie Awards
March 9th 2014
I’d always preferred words to numbers because a mess soothed my head more than organization
But now I categorize my past by dates and hours trying to make some sense
Of why things had to end the way they did and now my head is swimming with fractions of seconds that you’ve probably forgotten but haunt me every time I try to close my eyes to
chaos and filing cabinets
And no matter how many times I count on my fingers or scratch timelines into my skin I still can’t make any sense of
Why I still feel like this and what I did to make you leave
And it’s been 12 minutes since I started writing which is 12 times longer than the longest I’ve gone without thinking about you in
92 days except February is shorter than the other months but it too felt like an eternity and in 2 weeks it will have been a year since I first loved you
And I know it doesn’t matter at all.
So here are some more words that you don’t want and some blood red numbers on my hands that I can’t make sense of anyway
But at least I can say I tried until it killed me.
|—||linnea.harris. (via sunday-best-andbrokenglass)|
put-alil-prep-in-yo-step this is you essentially
do u ever realize how ugly u really are and it just ruins ur day
*white girl voice*: "*white girl voice*"
I just want a boyfriend with messy hair and a good taste in music
are you a dog? no ? goodbye